Kimberly

this is me in drag as Kimberly back in October .

I havent performed lately because there has not been any good venues for me to perform at due to the village station remodel. Kaliente was a trashy place where classy fishy drag queens were not appreciated. Most of the other clubs that have talent nights are 21 and up and so I couldnt go (but I wont be under 21 for too much longer). I am hoping to perform on a regular basis next semester, at least twice a month. performing as a female impersonator is my passion and Valerie's amatuer night is great practice in front of a good crowd. practice makes perfect right? Hopefully I will win first place next semester which has a $100 prize which I could put forward to a new gown or new wig to improve myself. Ive got first runner up before but never winner. the only bad thing about the amatuer night at station 4 is that it will always be during the week and not on a weekend. Station 4 opens on December 23rd and I had heard talks of them switching it from thursday to wednesday, which would actually be good for my schedule next semester seeing that my first class on thursday is at 1pm. I wonder what jerry's first class time on thursday is. hmm. Nancy and her friend Cecily and I think maybe Cecily's mom are going to come out to support me at probably my first performance when I return to Station 4 next semester. I wont be able to perform during the holidays because Ill be at home in plano with my parents who dont know I do drag. It is not time for them to know yet. I will tell them someday but I am going to wait for now. Well ok my break has lasted far too long, back to school work. I am going to go read Muchado about Nothing. Do my analysis of the play and then my character and makeup analysis of the three characters so I can turn them in tommorow. At least get one character done for sure is my goal but all three would be ideal. I hope Jerry's job search is going well and that someone will have a need that will be just perfect for him to fit. My mom had her first day at her new job today. I need to call tommorow and find out how it went. I hope she liked it.

the gathering

I use to write poetry alot when I was younger like in highschool.dealing with my homosexuality, coming out to my parents and friends was an emotionally charged time for me and writing was a way for me to express my most intense deepest thoughts and feelings. I need to start writing more again and I have some. I actually started a new poem today that when finished I will post.

Here's a poem I wrote my junior year of highschool ,I believe, entitled "The Gathering".:

As We laid that perfect tranquil night
Under the stars our only light
The night air consumed our souls
Gone is the mental image of our body filled with holes
No fiery sun to shine down scorn
No humid air to demoralize our worth
Recognizing who we have been since birth
As we come here our spirits are tired and worn
But being here, reminds us they were never torn
three lesbians played the guitar and the violin
The night air does not care whether you love her or him
What matters is that you do love at all
Acceptance secreted from the wall
Poured out of our eyes
Tonight intolerance surely dies
Join the circle, breathe in the night air
Have a seat, right here, anywhere

the poem is about this LGBT youth group that I used to attend every tuesday called Journey Out.

birthday plan changes??????

Ok so I may change the restraunt venue for my birthday.
I thought about
1. Chilis( http://chilis.com/)
2. MiCocina (http://mcrowd.com/micocina/main.htm)
3. Fridays (http://fridays.com/menu/index.htm, just an option but really the last place I want to go)
4. Taco Diner
5. Joe's Crab Shack (http://www.joescrabshack.com/)
6.Cafe Express (http://www.cafe-express.com/www/html/ce/ce_home.htm)
7. PF Chang's
(an advantage of this restraunt is that you can eat family style where you can get a few dishes and then everyone shares plus its not too expensive on alot of things http://www.pfchangs.com/cuisine/menu_main.jsp. ive been there before very good.)


I mean really the restraunt part is just a way for my friends that i know to get together and talk to eat and enjoy each other's company so where we eat isnt that crucial. the main part that is the most important is the drag show and dancing.

I also thought about what if Nancy's apartment complex had a club house we could use and perhaps jerry could cook some food(he is such a great cook, I love his cooking). that woud be awesome. we could sit around eating, enjoying each other's company. playing music,chatting, and possibly bring out the terot cards. just have alittle party and then go to Sue Ellen's and see the Rose Room cast perform and then go to TMC or BLUE. I wonder tho if people would come to Fort Worth , I wonder how far Nancy's apartment complex is from Sue Ellen's. I wonder if her complex has a club house. I wonder what she would say about the idea.hmmm.

lets see where people live

me,jerry,diana(denton)
nancy,john, chase(ft worth)
dametria,steven (arlington)
mark,jeremy(near ft. worth)
candace, ashley, naisha(plano)
Rhonda(not sure)
Krystal( carrolton, lewisville)
Diana, Krystal C (lewisville)
Anthony, Mike,Kelexis(Dallas)


My friend Mike's loft apartment building, the Davis building, has a nice club house area and is in Dallas but he works that night and wont be able to come to the dinner part so that wouldnt really work.

my celebration is a week from today so i have alittle time to work out the kinks.
I also was able to locate a notebook of some of my old poetry that I was looking for. I am going to publish some of my poems from it in upcoming blogs.

Homecoming.

Today is the day. He is finally coming home. I will get to talk to him and then hopefully see him tommorow! (*smiles*) I am so happy! how I have waited for this day! I have worries about the private room at Ferre since its only fits 14 people but then again there is a good probablity that even tho i invited more than 14 (like 16-18 I think) that only 14(well really 13 and then me) will come. I think it will work out. I talk to jerry about it today then email the lady friday to make the reservation.

sunny days are coming

Today marks two months for me and Jerry! (*smiles*) Damn, I miss him. I hope he is doing good.

Nancy talked to him today. She said he is doing well and actually enjoying himself. these days have been hard on me. It is hard not to be able to talk to him or see him. Talking to him on Sunday made sunday a much more positive day. I try to be happy ,but there have been times where I just want to break down and cry. I have some but I also have fought the emotions and told myself. I want to be strong. I dont want to seem silly. I am crying now as I right this. I know its good to release your emotions, not to keep them bottled up. I miss him terribly. I love him so much. Today,while at dinner, I was reading my horoscope which said someone loves you very much and you know who. that made me smile because of course its true. I want to feel his touch and be held in his arms. I long to be able to look into his beautiful eyes. The sun will come out tommorow, tommorow, bet your bottom dollar that tommorow. I wont get to see him tommorow but I should be able to talk to him for awhile on the phone. Hopefully on thanksgiving, I will get to see him and that will really be something to be thankful for. Of course, I have many things to be thankful for: amazing friends, loving parents, my sister, a wonderful sexy (*smiles*) boyfriend, and a great life. I am very thankful for what God has blessed with me.
God Bless!

the weather mirrors my moods

I find it interesting that I wrote the sun wont shine until you return and I was talking emotionally, how i felt inside. well i looked at the week's weather forecast and it was raining today, real bad storms tommorow, cloudy and sunny on wednesday. the sun peaking through the clowds and then sunny, clear skies on thursday. It has been horrible weather ever since he has been gone. I hope I get to see him some on thursday!!

Tommorow

I need to.........

1. get Nancy's email
2. get Anthony's email
3. get Ashley Child's email
4. Ashley B's email

to finish my guest list for the evite

5. read play's, try to turn in at least one more analysis before i leave campus on wednesday. two would be better. I have the rest of the day free after noon so i should be able to get alot accomplished if I dont get sucked into the computer. it can suck my time away like no other. i say im just gonna get on for 5 minutes and it turns into two hours.

the nice private dining room of Ferre

I called today and found out this room is available on Dec 5th. Problem is it only fits 14 people. I know a few ppl will probably skip dinner and just meet at the club, like ashley barnett has to come late due to work, and if i invite 16 people, there is a great possiblity that at least 2 wont be able to come to the dinner part and will just meet me at the bar. I think it is safe to go ahead and make the reservation first thing tommorow.

where to eat for birthday

Ok so I must decide because I must send out the invite. damn, I wish jerry was here to help me decide. maybe nancy could help me decide. I have a hard time with making decisions. lol. yea I am "Mr. Indecisive". See regarding where i eat on my 21st birthday, Ambiance is key. has to have a great atmosphere and good food too because great ambiance and horrible food. no no. and not too expensive either. there are some places with great ambiance but way escalated prices that i had to say no to.

Here are some of my choices

1. Cheesecake factory
(I went there last year tho. it is a great restraunt) link: cheesecakefactory.com

2. Grand Lux Cafe
(the downside about this place is it seems expensive. its made by same company that makes cheesecake factory. from guidelive's review "the restraunt is so very vegas that the local outpost isnt hard to spot at the galleria. Over-the-top Italianate decor makes for a can't miss drive up. The opulent interior could be an object lesson for an art history course. A little art decor here. Some art moderne there. An edwardian accent or two. Oh, my goodness, tsk'd my companion, a university art prof........oversized booths are restful and the noise level is bearable. circus tent chandeliers, good leaf walls...." it like the cheesecake factory has a wide variety of foods served there. something for everyone. They gave it 3 1/2 star rating. link: Grandluxecafe.com

3.MiCocina
(great food,nice atmosphere, ive been there many times, i do love mexican food)

4. Nandina's
(asian restraunt with a watergarden, water wall, multi-level pound fed by series of waterfalls to set the mood, food highly rated this is what D magazine says and Ive read other very positive reviews too "NandinaChef/co-owner Seiji Wakabayashi strikes a perfect balance between Eastern and Western flavors with his savory list of tapas. Asian ceviche, melt-in-your-mouth Kobe beef, and crispy quail are standouts. 5631 Alta Ave., East Dallas. 214-826-6300. $$. " 4 stars from www.guidelive.com)

5. Monica's
D BEST Monica's Aca y AllaCHEFS’ CHOICE 2003 WINNER: Best Restaurateur (Monica Greene). It’s not just the quality of the food—it’s the half-price entrées on Tuesday nights and 50-cent margaritas on Wednesdays that keep this place a perennial hot spot. Cool never came so cheap. 2914 Main St., Downtown/Deep Ellum. 214-748-7140. $-$$. link:http://www.monicas.com/ Ive eaten here before. very good.
6. Ferre
D BEST Ferre Ristorante & BarStreet-side dining and Tuscan tastes continue to keep the fickle Dallas feasters at roost. Salmon with tomato basil risotto and artichoke lemon sauce is simply delicious, and the wine list has some excellent values. West Village, 3699 McKinney Ave., Ste. 106, Oak Lawn/Uptown. 214-522-3888. $$. gets 4 stars from guidelive.com
it has an urban new york loft feel that I really like. It has a nice private dining room that we could use. hmmm! I may be leaning toward this one. i dont know.
link: ferredallas.com


my friend Mark says I should go to the metropolitan but while they say the ambiance is great, I have read severeal poor reviews on the actual food. It may be great for just the bar but as far as food.....no.well this is a good list to refer back to. I need to make my decision soon.

well decisions, decisions, hmm im making one right now, i am going to leave the computer lab now and go call ian(whom oh I would love to be able to attend my birthday party but hes in PA.) and do some makeup hmwk. I am so energized right now. I cant believe it is 1125pm. it feels like much much earlier. hmmmm

the sun will come out tommorow

...and the sun peaks through the clouds
Jerry called me today! It was so great to hear his voice! it made me so happy! it was good to hear from him that he was ok and doing good. he seemed to be in good spirits just like nancy said but its different hearing it directly from him. ( *HUGE SMILE*) I have been happier and more positive outlook today. Last night and even this morning in my half awake state was wishing he called me, just to hear his voice, for him to tell me he was ok and then he did and it made me so exceedingly happy! (*smile*)

today was the last day of "Once Upon a Mattress". we had strike and got everything cleaned up. We got out quite early because we started cleaning up before the show was over. I just got done eating. I worked today on styling my wig for the youthful collector. Today I am going try to do my middle age analysis which Ive decided to do from the same play then my two old age can be from a different play. think I am going to do Mitch. I think I am going to turn in my youthfuls tommorow. need to get finished with them and move on to my next stuff

raining

its raining outside, its raining inside
its dark and then sun wont shine until you return
this morning I barely wanted to get out of bed
looked up at your picture on the wall
hurt to look because you are not here
im worried for you most of all
sat on the toilet, listened to old voicemails from you for comfort
hung on to and savoured every word
wish they were longer but i appreciate what i have
since i can not talk to you in live time
and I so badly want to hear from you
tell me you are ok
tell me they are not being too hard on you
I wish I was there but I guess I am in spirit
I hope you feel my presence
had all these goals today
somehow my motivation just faded away
trying to be strong
dont want to seem weak
just saw that I had an unvailable missed call on my phone
I wonder if it was you
wonder if it
was
YOU

I hope I get to see him on wednesday but I dont know because thats the day before thanksgiving and I am supposed to be out of my dorm room by 5 and the building by 7 and my parents will want to come pick me up altho we havent set up a time yet and then ill be in plano on thanksgiving. hmmm I cant wait til the day when we reunite but I can wait as long as they are treating you ok, as long as you are doing good and were one day closer now than yesterday. (*sad smile*,*sigh*)

Station4 grand opening date announced!

December 23rd Ladies and Gentleman! Yes Mam! I so want to be there for that. YESSSSSSSSSS! about damn time, I wish it was opened in time for my birthday but oh well! I am so excited! that is great news to brighten up an otherwise sad day.

you

I hope they are treating you right
I hope they are feeding you right
I wonder about your sleeping conditions
I miss you
I just want you to be ok
I am worried for you.

birthday plans

Ok so this weekend, I have to sit down and plan out the exact details of my birthday with jerry like for one where are we going to eat? i guess thats the biggest thing because that is where most everyone will all meet up and so we have to have a clear concise meeting place and time. I know I want to go to Sue Ellens to see the show so I dont have to worry about that part. I kinda wanted to go somewhere and eat seafood but Mark told me seafood and alcohol dont mix so Im like hmm. It would so suck to get sick on my birthday. So today I got my old age hands approved finally after like my 2nd or 3rd try. I still am working on my youthful designs. AHHH! my stanley one is basically done,I just need to do the worksheet. Then for my youthful collector, I need to do the design on tracing paper because I have a basic design of what I want him to look like, I just need to fill it out and then do my worksheet. Maybe I will get my stanley design and worksheet done before the call for the performance of once upon a mattress and then finish my other one during the performance after ive finished my makeup duties. I think I am going to use a black wig for my second youthful. This weekend I am going to try to use some of the time to way catch up like read and get some analysis in. sooo need to. Ok well now im going to go eat and then work on my design process. I will be so pleased with myself when I have turned in my youthful designs, then I can move to my middle age analysis. ok well if i keep typing here and playing on the computer, I will never get my designs done so I better say bye now.(went to eat and came back to write a few more thoughts) Oh yea one more thing, yesterday I registered for classes, I registered in THEA 1095, History of Costume and Decor, Theater History and Music and the human imigination. I wanted to take a World Lit class or a US history but all the good proffessors were taken. I am hoping that some ppl wont be able to pay their fees on Dec 3rd so I can get into one of the good classes. I also want to get into costume and if I get into costume, I will drop my theater history. The next time I can change my schedule will be January 3-10th. Ok yea so I emailed Edna today. I hope I hear back from him because I emailed him along time ago about my request and I never heard back. I dont think I am going to see Jerry today since I need to just focus on my studies today. Im sure Ill see him tommorow and I would love to see him today but I need to focus on my studies. I woke up today thinking about him and his beautiful face. I am so lucky to have him in my life. He is such a wonderful guy. (*smiles*) I dont think he knows how sexy he really is. He is soooo sexy! He makes me feel so sexy too. oh I could go on and on but oh yea, makeup designs! Did I take my aderol today? oh no, i didnt did I? oops! ill take some later when i go back to the dorm to change into all blacks for crew. for now, its off to i guess like the third floor of the library to work on designing!

makeup and last names

So I am thinking about changing my drag last name from Lancaster to Scott. Kimberly Scott. I like the sound of it. I dont know. I still need to write my letter to Krystal and Maya about them mentoring me and I would be so honored to take either one of their last names. In some ways, Krystal is Maya's drag daughter yet they have their own distinct last names so I could still be mentored and a daughter of them and still have the last name Scott. I need to write those letters and just be completely honest about how I would be so honored if they would mentor me. Today, I get to see Jerry. YAY! I hope his back is feeling better today. I dont like to see my baby in pain. I was praying for his back and for him to find a new job soon just the other night. I know the right job is out there for him. We will get to spend a good amount of time together today and then later on I need to work on my makeup designs. I have done my youthful analysis but I need to do the two designs and the worksheet. I am going to try to turn at least one youthful design in tommorow and maybe the other one and my middle age analysis on thursday. I so miss performing as Kimberly. I need to call Sierra Diamond and see about where to perform in Fort Worth that she was talking about. I do not want to return to Kaliente. The Rose Room needs to hurry up and open!

let me rant for a moment

First of all the because the University of North Texas' administration is showing an utter disregard for academics in favor of athletics, everything is so messed up right now. In my biology class, we are missing an entire lecture due to the new exam schedule. Our professor has already made up the exam and says he is not going to change the exam. I really could have used that extra week of dead week to study for my finals but instead my finals have all been moved to dead week.I really could have taken advantage of valuable review time at the end of dead week but now we will not be having those review and will probably barely be able to cover the information that we were supposed to cover. It is an insult to students and faculty. I have come to this unversity to get a quality education and academics are my focus. Clearly the administration needs to get their priorities straight.We are a university with a football team, not a football team with a university. We are here to learn not to go play football and cheer on the team (altho Id probably look cute in a cheerleader outfit as Kimberly, here let me do a cheer "Go Fuck Johnson!" ,not that you will ever catch me cheering for UNT football, I think with all this, I may never attend another UNT football game)Let me remind you dear administration, football is a extracurricular activity,extracurricular! People are using the exscuse well this is good for the university because football brings so much money to the university well look at the statistics

For 2002-2003:
Football Revenue - $2,258,744Football Expenses - $3,223,764
For 2001-2002:
Football Revenue - $1,842,999Football Expenses - $2,832,396
For 2000-2001:
Football Revenue - $1,409,634Football Expenses - $2,583,023

The university has also said the schedule change is for "student safety reasons" because last year 4 students died on the way back from the bowl game.Well unlike they are trying to make it sound, last year the bowl game didnt conflict with finals so these students werent rushing back to campus to take finals.

Also the university knew about the bowl game schedule from the begining of the semester, if they had wanted to make a change of the exam schedule they should have done it then, not a fucking month before finals!! Dr. McKee, UNT's faculty athletics representative, said UNT would have "looked silly" if it had changed the schedule at the beginning of the semester and then the football team missed the bowl game. (from the Dallas Morning News) I think UNT looks ridiculious now and would have had alot more crediblity and respect from student body and faculty if they had made this change before the semester started. Some people are saying that this action could affect the accreditation of the university which is supposed to be up for review this year. It definitely reflects on the university's acedemic integrity.

Also, ok so this schedule change also violates state law because we are not meeting for the minimum hours required by the state, so how in the world can they continue to go through with this decision.What kind of standard does that set for students who see the university trying to break state law for a football game?

Only 500 students are required to go and university officials estimate that another 3,500 students will attend. Still that leaves about 28,000 students who are not going to the game and are having their schedules and lives turned upside down for a fucking football game? It really hurts art students, theater students who have performance projects or directing projects or in my case makeup projects which are due at the end of the semester and now we are loosing a whole week.

So what I want to know is where is my fucking refund? because I think all of the student body should be given a refund for the week of precious education that they paid for that was stolen from them. Either that or the university needs to change it back to the way it was and show that they have some integrity. My parents are going to email the administration about their disapproval of the university's actions and possibly demand a refund for the week of my schooling they paid for. My Biology teacher today encouraged all of us to get our parents to contact the administration. Maybe if enough people take a stand, some positive change will come.

On another note, you know I was so happy that my birthday was not right before finals week when i saw the new schedule because last year my birthday was right in the middle of finals week. Now my birthday is going to be on Sunday and I have my first exam two days later on Wednesday. I probably will go ahead and celebrate my birthday on the day of my birthday because its my 21st birthday and I want to celebrate it on my 21st birthday, not a week later. I hope it doesnt affect the people being able to come to my birthday party though. It is on a Sunday which I hope doesnt discourage attendance. I could celebrate it on another day if need be but I would really like to celebrate it onthe actual day of my birthday.
Also with my job, I applied to the Gap and told them the first day I could work was the 18th well actually now due to the final exam schedule change, I could start working Dec 11th which might have made a difference. I could still try and see about contacting them and letting them know my new availablity since I have worked their before and know at least one manager there. Ill have to see. I may end up working at Ross again.

Hmm I feel much better now altho I am still very upset at the administration.

Sadness

This has been a sad week. I have only seen Jerry for 2 hours this whole week. I really really miss him. I cant wait to see him tommorow even if it is only for a short period of time. I hope I get to see alot more of him next week. I love him so much. I have to look at the bigger picture though I have alot to be thankful for. I have a wonderful boyfriend in my life who loves me very much. Its just been a hard week for me. Tommorow's a new day tho. Tonight, on my walk back to the dorm when i was walking on the golf course which is poorly lighted and kind of scary, I looked into the sky and saw Orion and Castar and Pollux and Saturn and Serius and proscion. it was cool that i could actually point them out and identify them. it was so beautiful. it made me smile. well im off to sleep. sweet dreams to me. hehe. night.

Thoughts

So I am sitting here all dressed cute. I am wearing black gap turtleneck and these nice black curdoroy(sp) pants and my black pea coat, its all black for crew but its very GQ too and I was excited about seeing Jerry an him seeing me dressed all cute. Well see the next bus dont leave til 410 and I would not end up at jerry's until like 5 and then I have to be back at the theater building for crew at 6 and Jerry wont be ready to take me back then cuz he is cleaning the apartment for george's parents arrival so I cant see Jerry today. Its all good, just alittle disappointing. I wont get to see Jerry til Sunday most likely cuz when George's parents do stuff with george they normally want jerry to come along which is cool. I just miss him. cuz of this theater makeup crew and studying and other stuff I have not gotten to see him very much this week. I guess absence does make the heart grow fonder. It was great seeing him yesterday even tho it was only for two hours. I love him so much. He is so sexy and wonderful.

Makeup crew is fun. I am the official makeup artist of this one girl named Krystal. I help her do her makeup every night. She does some but I help blend and perfect it. I also get her brushes, sponges, eyelash glue whatever she needs. I am in the girls dressing room and am on hand to help whoever needs assistance. After the show, we take the glue off the eyelashes and clean the brushes. I do alot of odds and ends makeup jobs. Its alot of fun.

So about my birthday, I do not know what to do. I really want a drag show with Krystal, Maya, Kelexis to be a part of my birthday celebration(that is one of my biggest birthday wishes to see them three) but I dont really want to spend my birthday at Sue Ellens(but Sue Ellens is where they perform on Sundays). I wish I could throw a private party and have them perform at it. Krystal is my friend but even still I mean performing is her work and I doubt she could miss a night of work performing to perform for free at a private party. A private party would entail so much though, room rental fee, performers fee and all that. the great thing about having my party at where the regularly perform is that you dont have to pay for the entertainers and rental fee and all that. I wish they performed at TMC on Sunday. TMC is alot better than Sue Ellen's. or even JR's. hmmm. I know it will all work out ok. The show at Sue Ellens are at 11 and12 so maybe like at one we could leave Sue's and go to another club like TMC or Blue or Club One to dance the night away. I want to go out to eat somewhere first, then go see the show, then go dance. That sounds good we go to Sue Ellens for part of the night and then go to another club. I am not sure where I want to go eat before we head to the club. Last year, I went to the cheesecake factory.I dont know. I still have some time to figure out those details. I should send out an email invitation sometime in the near future so people can mark it on their calendar and dont make other plans. I really want Nancy to come. Sunday December 5, Nancy, dont make any other plans! haha. My birthday is less than a month away. I will be 21! Yay!

Check out this website

http://www.sharedvoice.org/unamerican/index.html

me 

just alittle something I wrote

A wise friend of mine named Nancy once told me to write so I did. I wrote this alittle while ago and I thought I would go ahead and post it.

I moved on and I've left there
you will never bring me back there
I am not angry, oh no,
I am not filled with hate, oh no,
I cant be cuz if I was, it would destroy me
take all that trash and throw it out the window
I just let it go
I forgive you
you did not know how much I was
worth
I know my worth tho I am not filled
with pride
I am being all myself now, look at me now
you might say wow
you tried to take part of me away
but you never could
I am doing so good
I am filled with hope, peace, happiness
and most importantly love
thanks given to the father above
he loves to seeing me being me
I spread my wings and I am free
God is looking down and smiling at
Jerry and Me

Ok well im off to go work on makeup stuff. I want to sleep but I want to get work done. Part of me wants to sleep and never wakeup cuz Im worn down and the other part of me is like "No, you must get your makeup work done. you are behind. you cant miss another day of class(which is true) ." I am so tired. I think I will work on makeup alitle bit more and then crash and then go to class. *yawns*! Tommorow I get to see Jerry!!!!!!!!! I am so happy. I miss my baby! Goodnight

Crazy Week

This week has been crazy. So I get sick on Monday and pretty sick yesterday, Im recovering and returning to health today but still not 100 percent myself. I miss Jerry and Jerry is sick too. I will hopefully get to see him for alittle bit today tho. I am doing makeup run crew which started Monday. Monday, we watched the play and then starting yesterday we applied makeup. I helped this girl do her makeup. I was like "honey, no. what are you doing. you must blend!" lol. it was fun and i got to watch half of the play too. this is dress rehearsal. the preview is tommorow and opening is friday. The only bad part is I have less time to do homework. Right now, I am behind in my makeup class which I can easily catch up but I just got to work hard. I can do it. I have no doubt. Next Monday, I have three exams on the same day. no fun. I hate when that happens. I am trying to figure out what play to do for my middle age makeup and my old age 1 makeup. I am trying to find one that will have characters I can use for both so less plays for me to read and less analysis to do. I am also so mad about the news I have to come to find that if our football team goes to the championship, then our semester will be cut by a week. Which would seem like a good thing right? one more week of break but NO! I mean I want a full week of dead week to use to study for my finals. I want the best chance of doing well on my finals. I care about my academic future. So if they do win, our finals are going to be pushed back to the thursday, friday, and saturday of dead week, which I happen to think is just horrible. Univerity of North Texas is sending the message that athletics is more important than academics. Also about 800 students will be going on this trip to the championship and the unt student body has 3300 students. So that 800 is about 4% of the student body and yet they want this to affect the whole student body. I mean at a highschool if a team were to go to a championship, they wouldnt change the school schedule. They would just have those students make other arrangements to take their exams earlier and thats exactly what should happen here. We may not have a final in Makeup class now and for directing and performing classes, it really throws off their schedule too. I am going to pray that they lose their next two games and dont go to the finals. or if they do, I hope enough people stand up to the administration and that something changes. I mean professors are furious about this too. Well I have to get back to choosing a play. I am thinking maybe Much Ado about Nothing, As you like it, Midsummer nights dream or something. I dont know. and then at one, its off to psychology. I have my middle age analysis due tommorow and I have not even read the play. Tsk! Tsk! I can read the play during rehearsal after makeup application. Oh well thats whats going on in my crazy world this week. Until Next time, keep hope and faith close to your heart and never stop loving.

Energy, Mentors, and Family

Last night was so much fun. I am really glad that Nancy was able to come over. When Nancy, Jerry and I are together, there is such a high intensity of positive energy in the room which we all feel. I sense cold negative energy from George's friend Hime. George does not need to be surrounding himself with such a person. Today has been a relaxful saturday so far. It was so good to see my mom and talk to her over breakfast. Unfortunately, my dad was sick and couldnt come down with her. I hope to see him sometime in the near future. not sure if it will end up being before thanksgiving break or not. I really want to approach Krystal and Maya about being my mentors but right now I am scared of doing so. I just want to make sure I approach it in the appropriate way. I really do feel that they could be the mentors that nancy saw when she was reading my cards. I think I am going to get to see Jerry for about an hour or so later on today but other than that, I am not sure what I am going to end up doing for the rest of the day. I will figure something out.