Grades, shows, rest!

So heres how my semester ended up.

Psychology...A
Political Science....B
Makeup.......B
Biology.....C
Biology Lab....C

I am pleased. The holidays have been good. oh I will post more on that later though.Yesterday was good. I finally got to see Jerry! Yay! We met over at Nancy's and while it was alittle short, very enjoyable catching up and seeing Nancy, John, Jerry, and Keisha. I may see Jerry today depending on how he feels. He got sick while in San Antonio. Allergies or something. I hope he gets all the rest he needs. I may see Ashley Childs today. I was supposed to work today but because of payroll issues, they had to cut my hours today which actually was nice. I am enjoying my day off. I have watched some more of the season 3 Alias today. Vaughn finally found out that Lauren is working for the covenant. Yesterday I got the show Popular on DVD and I started watching it today. It is great. sad it only lasted for two seasons. I cant wait to share this great show with Jerry sometime. Well while I am talking about TV shows I guess I will list my all time favorite shows.

1.Popular
2.Alias
3.Queer as Folk
4.Will and Grace
5.Dead like me
6.Sex and the City
7.Saved by the Bell
8.OZ

what are your favorite TV shows?

Well I am going to continue my day of relaxation. I may read some of this book Nancy gave me and then my dad wants me to read this other book. Hopefully, I will also do some socializing today. Tommorow I am off work. Also, I have the rehearsal dinner for Sarah's wedding and have to pick up my tux. Friday, Jerry and I are going to Station 4 for new year's eve and then Saturday is Sarah's wedding. A good week ahead.

Until Next Time, remember to have fun and relax alittle!

End of the Semester Wrap. Looking Back.

Well makeup class is over----almost! I just have to do my final self evaluation over the makeups. I got my corrective, 2 youthfuls,a middle age and a final makeup done. Never got to do my old age. I am hoping I will still be able to get a B ( since I need a B for it to count towards my major). Im not done with my adventures in makeup though (well I hope this class at least). I am hoping to assistant design for this play Cleansed next semester and eventually be the head makeup designer somewhere in the not too distant future. I want to learn more about costume and makeup! This semester in makeup was crazy. It was so much fun and I learned alot. She didnt set due dates so thats how me and alot of the class got behind and procrastinated. I mean in some ways its really cool to be able to set your own schedule for a class like this. I just procrastinated alot. Oh well, I am thinking I will get my B. Today I did the makeup for Ozma of OZ and it came out ok. I didnt really like how the eyes came out. I need practice my precision on the eyes more. I never went to bed last night.haha! I hope I get to see Jerry today. It would be nice to spend the night with him since Ill be going home to Plano tommorow. The Semester is Over! Really? WOW! it went by way fast and it was an awesome semester. I think academically I did really well. I'll find out soon enough. This was the semester I met Jerry. Fall 2004. It has been alot of fun and I am so blessed to habe a wonderful guy like Jerry in my life. I love you baby! I also met a great new friend Nancy who I look forward to getting know better. I learned Makeup and Costume Design is the field of theater I want to go into (with drag on the side of course!)I had an awesome birthday, I tell you I was the happiest boy on the planet that night! This is an exciting time in my life and Im excited about what's ahead. A break will be nice. I do not want to work at Ross though but hey it's a job. I wanted to work at gap but they never called me back. I really I hope I get to assistant design for cleansed(what a bizarre play, my parents would sooooooooo be offended! Id have to be like "yea im assistant designing but dont come and see it, not your type of thing. Its 'R' rated" (they dont go see 'R' rated movies normally).this last few weeks have been stressful when it came down to makeup and finals and all that tho (but of course), I am like now I can relax, well after I write the final evaluation and fix something on my analysis!
As a whole, I look back at the last few months and I smile. more reflection to come later Im sure but now tis time to eat and write paper!

Brilliant, I wouldnt change you for the world and more adventures in makeup!

From the play Angels in America:

The Great Question before us is: are we doomed? The Great Question before us is: will the Past realease us? The great question before us is: can we change? in Time? and we all desire that Change will come. (little pause.) (with sudden violent passion) And Theory? How are we to proceed without Theory? What System of Thought have these Reformers to present to this mad swirling planetary disorganization,to the Inevident Welter of fact, event, phenomenon, calamity? Do they have, as we did, a beautiful Theory, as bold, as Grand, as comprehensive a construct....? You can't imagine, when we first read the Classic Texts, when in drak vexed night of our ignorance and terror the seed-words sprouted and showed incomprehension asaid, when the incredible bloody vegetable struggle up and through into Red Blooming gave us Praxis, True Praxis, True Theory married to Actual Life.....You who lived in this Sour Little Age cannot imagine the grandeur of the prospect we gazed upon: like standing atop the highest peak in the mighty Caucasus and viewing in one all-knowing glance the mountainous, granite order of creation. You cannot imagine it. I weep for you.
And what have to offer now, children of this theory? What have you to offer in its place? Market Incentives? American Cheeseburgers? Watered-down Bukharinite stopgap makeshift Capitalism! NEPment! Pygmy children of a gigantic race!
Change? Yes. we must change, only show me the theory, and I will be at the barricades, show me the book of the next Beautiful Theory, and I promise you these blind eyes will see again, just to read it, to devour that text. Show me the words that will reorder the world, or else keep silent.
If the snake sheds his skin before a new skin is ready, naked he will be in the world, prey to the forces of chaos. Without his skin he will be dismantled, lose coherence and die. Have you, my little serpents, a new skin?


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Dedicated to my love: (lyrics by Billy Joel)

Don't go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore
I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take 'till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you, and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.
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So I have executed both of my youthful makeups last week! I just finished reading Part Two of Angels in America and I loved it! Brilliant! I finished reading Ozma of Oz to do my final makeup for Ozma and am going to do my two papers tonight:my old age and final makeup and get that out of the way and then I think I am going to watch the creation of Kimberly video and then an episode of Sex and the City before bed time. I sure hope Barbara returns my middle age analysis with approval tommorow so I can execute my middle age tommorow. Wednesday class time we have 3 hours and then 2 hours on thursday. We have 2 hours of prep time tommorow like chosing out makeup products we want to use for our final makeups and working on wigs which I need to style a wig for Ozma which I want to be big and over the top.and then 2 hours of makeup time tommorow (which I hope to use to do my Uncle Freddie Makeup). Well I need to stop writing about what Im gonna do (like writing those papers) and actually go write the damn things. Cuz I am wonderful at procrastinating! Ok im off. huggs and kisses until next time!

Congrats Kitty!

Well while I would love to tell you all about the wonderful pageant, which I am sure it was, last night and how much fun I had.......well sadly I didnt get to go! Its really no one's fault and I'm not mad, things happen. Last night I was consumed with sadness and very upset about not going altho not mad. I was so excited about going and it was a huge let down for me to come to the realization that I was not going. I wanted so bad to be there to honor Kelexis for being such a great representative for the system and having such an incredible reign this last year. It was something I had been looking forward to for a long time and was so very excited that the time had finally come. I had to refocus my energy and look at the positives though. They do videotape the pageant so I can always buy the video.(there are actually alot of videos I would like to purchase, I would like to purchase some Maya Douglas pageant tapes, I would like to purchase the year Kelexis won at large, which i had and was present for the event too but I wanted it for memories but my ex ended up with my copy when we broke up so I will have to buy it again, and Id like the copy of when Layla won Miss Gay UsofA. I would like to purchase videos of some of the great pageants that I was too young to have attended before I even knew what drag was and learn from the formers like Maya, Erica and so on) Also there will be other pageants and while at one point I thought the next good one wouldnt be til May(thats when the next national pageant in Dallas is, Miss Gay UsofA which I for sure will be going to) there is Miss South UsofA going to happen in January on the 30th which looks to be a good one. Also the grand opening of Station 4 is going to happen in less than 2 weeks on the 23rd of this month and it should be a splendid time for drag enjoyment (oh for dancing too)All of the cast members will be performing will have some great group numbers they have been working on for awhile that they will do at least twice a night from the 23rd to New Years Day.

I can however tell you who won.............your Miss Gay UsofA at large 2004.......Miss Kitty Litter.
on her talent this was posted on carriefairfield.com
"Kitty tore the house down with her number. Wendy Williams came out and began the number with some slow song (can't remember the name) and Kitty came out in this huge coat and pushed Wendy off the stage. She then took her coat off and had a fabulous glittered dance costume on. Then several dancers came out in outfits made of the same material as her outfit. They danced the heck out of the number. Kitty worked that hair!!!!!"

I will probably post a pic of Kitty Litter sometime soon. you can check out a pic of her right now tho if you so please by going to usofacomputers.com!

Well now I am off to eat(I am so hungry!) and read some more "Angels in America". Huggs and Kisses Until Next Time!

Finals, UsofA at Large

So Im done taking my political science exam just now. It was harder than I thought but I think Ill do ok. I am done with finals except for my theatrical makeup class which I have next week monday-thursday to finish. I am really excited about doing the analysis and the makeups. The ozma of Oz one will be so much fun. I am so happy today. today is a good day. Tonight me and jerry (and I think my friend anthony is going to meet us there) are going to the Miss Gay UsofA at large pageant and I so can not wait! I love the UsofA pageants, hell I love pageants but the UsofA is something special. It will be a great night. I cant wait to see who makes the top 10 and who is crowned. I am excited about seeing Layla, Kelexis and all the formers. It will be a great night and the MCS like miss Kofi, Dena Cass, and this other queen are hillarious so it should be a wonderful evening of comedy, beauty, choreography, and girls dancing. ooooohhh! I am EXCITED!
YES MAM!
Big girls can work it too!

Thats what you call freedom? Exscuse Me?

Our country was founded on freedom. When did freedom mean everyone has to have the same religion you do which has to be Christianity, love the same way you do, have sex the same way you do (oops! did I say sex!? we're not supposed to do that either unless its for procreation, oh no! "just say no to sex"(that really works) and absolutely don't use condoms, contraceptives of any kind, birth control, the horror! sorry mam, I cant fill that prescription, it's against my religion. dont teach our kids about stds cuz they dont need that information anyways cuz they'll all be good boys and girls and just say no.) preserve your right for hetrosexual marriage (oh no honey, a gay married couple just moved next door! Well I guess now our marriage doesn't mean anything anymore and we have to get a divorce! wife cries, oh honey I haven't loved you for the last two years but we still had the sanctity of marriage but now!) and believe everything that you do but oh other than that, yea you have freedom.

That's freedom? oh no, thats not what I wanted. let me order something different on the menu!

Also find this article interesting:
WASHINGTON — The Human Rights Campaign and the Gay and Lesbian Alliance Against Defamation called on CBS today to publicly clarify its recent refusal to air a paid advertisement from the United Church of Christ highlighting the denomination's acceptance of all people regardless of race, economic standing and sexual orientation.

In a written statement refusing the ad, CBS told the UCC that the inclusion of scenes that touch on "the exclusion of gay couples and other minority groups" by other religious institutions as well as "the fact the executive branch has recently proposed a constitutional amendment to define marriage as a union between a man and a woman" meant that "this spot is unacceptable for broadcast on the [CBS and UPN] networks."

Both GLAAD and HRC have had conversations with senior executives in CBS's corporate communications and standards and practices departments and urged them to clarify this statement publicly. To date, CBS has not done so.

"By refusing to set the record straight, CBS may be sending a dangerous message of support to leaders looking to politicize same-sex couples and their families for personal gain. That is wrong," said HRC Political Director Winnie Stachelberg. "Allowing misinformation about the failed Federal Marriage Amendment to taint this discussion is potentially damaging to many Americans."

"For CBS to base a policy decision on an anti-gay Bush adminstration initiative raises serious questions about the network's credibility and independence," said GLAAD Executive Director Joan M. Garry. "CBS needs to offer a public clarification and explain why it invoked a discriminatory piece of legislation as part of its refusal to air the UCC's ad."

The UCC ad, which was also declined by NBC, concludes with the line, "Jesus doesn't turn people away. Neither do we. No matter where you are or where you are on life's journey, you are welcome here." View the ad on the UCC website.

In addition to FOX — the only major broadcast network so far to say it will air the UCC's ad — the 30-second spot has been accepted by a number of cable networks, including ABC Family, AMC, BET, CNN, Comedy Central, the Discovery Channel, the Hallmark Channel, the History Channel, Nick at Nite, TBS, TNT, the Travel Channel and TV Land.

Also today, the United Church of Christ announced that it has filed two related petitions with the Federal Communications Commission

What are you afraid of?

People are so afraid of homosexuals. We're just gonna ruin the world. It is really sad. If they only got to know us. I just read this play called "Bent". It is about gays in the Holocaust. These two guys Max and Horst fall in love at a concentration camp. Max ends up getting a yellow star and marked as a jew (he sleeps with a dead girl to prove he's not queer because Horst tells him pink is the lowest) while Horst has a pink triangle that he wears he wears proudly.

Max: Just. Just dead, minutes...bullet...in her....they said....prove that you're...and I did... prove that you're...lots of them, watching....laughing....drinking....he's a bit bent, they said, he can't...but I did...
Horst:How?
Max: I don't...I don't...know. I wanted....
Horst: to stay alive

At the end of the play, Horst is killed. Earlier on in the play, Max says " sometimes a guard throws a prisoner's hat against the fence. He orders him to get the hat. If he doesn't get the hat, the guard will shoot him. If he does get the hat, he will be electrocuted. So in the final scene, the captain orders Horst to throw his hat against the fence. Horst walks very slowly to the fence but right before he reaches the fence he runs and attacks the captain. The guard shoots Horst but he still keeps fighting. The second shot kills Horst. The captain orders Max to put the body in the pit.

{Max opens his mouth to cry out. He can't.

Silence.

Max walks to Horst's body. He tries to lift it. It is heavy. He manages to pull the body partly up. Horst's head resting against MAX's cgest. He looks away. He takes HORST, feet dragginh up on the ground, toward the pit.

The bell rings.}

Max: No! (he stands there holding on to Horst) It's O.K. I wont drop you. I'll hold you. If I stand at attention, I can hold you. They'll let me hold you. I wont let you down. (Silence.) I never held you before. (Silence.) You dont have to worry about moving the rocks. I'll do yours, too. I'll move twice as many each day. I'll do yours, too Uou dont have to worry about them. (Silence.) You know what? (Silence.) Horst?(Silence.) You know what? (Silence.) I think...(Silence.) I think I love you. (Silence.)Shh! Dont tell anyone. I think I loved.....I cant remember his name. A dancer. I think I love him, too. Dont be jealous. I think I loved....some boy a long time ago. In my father's factory. Hans. That was his name. But the dancer. I don't remember. (Silence.) I love you. (Silence.) What's wrong with that? (Silence.) Whats wrong with that?

That is what I want to know. What's wrong with loving someone who happens to be the same sex? What's so wrong with me loving Jerry?

SILENCE!

You wont hear an answer because there is NOTHING! NOTHING wrong about it at all. This scene of the play gets me so emotional every time I read it. It is so powerful.
What is so wrong with a committed loving couple who happens to be a same sex couple wanting to express their commitment through marriage? People talk about the homosexual agenda and how we are just breaking away the fiber of American traditional moral values. When did HATE become such a family value? What is wrong with me wanting the same rights as a straight married male? What is so wrong with me wanting to be able to be there at the hospital room when my partner is sick,possibly dying? Shouldn't I be able to say goodbye?
There are at least 1,049 protections, benefits and responsibilities extended to married couples under federal law, according to a 1997 study by the General Accounting Office.

Love is never wrong!

Birthday Pictures!

Jeremy,Mark, and I 

Here are the birthday pictures I promised.
you can click on any of the pictures to enlarge them. just so you know. Enjoy! Jerry took alot of video tape so we may take some screen caps from it and then I can post those too. :) Underneath all the pics is a story account of my wonderful night!

Kelexis! Fierce! 

Ashley and I 

Me, Ashley and Nesha 

Me with Dametria and Steven! 

Claudia, Jerry and I 

Me and Claudia 

Mark, Ashley and I 

the group of us at PF Changs! 

me and Jerry 

Isnt he so sexy? His eyes are so beautiful! They just melt you!

me with the rose room cast 

Cassie, Kelexis, Layla, and Maya.

My birthday

WOW ! WONDERFUL! HAPPY! ok thats all for now. ill tell more tommorow.


(the next day)
Ok so it was a most wonderful birthday. I had so much fun. It made me so happy. It started out with me and Jerry went to walmart together and got this awesome chocolate cheesecake and came home and put 21 candles on it and I made a wish and then blew them out. We got to cuddle alittle at the apartment before we had to head off to PF Changs. We got to PF Changs and Mark, Jeremy, Dametria and Steven were there already. Claudia, Ashley, and Nesha end up showing up later too. I liked the dinner so much because it brought together my friends who are very different that ive met in different phases of my life. I think everyone really liked Jerry and Jerry really liked them too. Id like to get them all together again sometime soon. I had honey crispy chicken and spring rolls and this delicious strawberry/rasberry new york style cheesecake, which cheesecake is my favorite desert by the way. The food was very good. After dinner, jeremy, mark, dametria, steven, and claudia ended up outside and were just chatting and having so much fun. It was really nice to see some friends of mine that I have not seen in awhile.

Claudia was the only one who ended up coming to Sue Ellen's with us, which was fine. I was worried about Claudia being able to get in since she is only 19 (altho looks much older) and Sue Ellen's is 21 and up but she just walked right in. no problem at all! I thought Rhonda was going to meet us up there but I never saw here. thats fine though. We were at the club for alittle while before the show started. They had balloons for me at the club which was really nice. The drag show was awesome. It was the ideal cast (except for it was missing Krystal but Ill get to see her perform soon): Cassie(former Miss Gay Texas), Whitney(former miss USofA at large), Maya(former Miss UsofA, former miss EOY, former miss continental, hell shes a former miss everything), Layla(the current reigning Miss UsofA), and Kelexis ( the current reigning Miss UsofA at Large for a few more days until she gives up her crown to this year's winner). Yes, Kelexis was there. Her booking in Longview got messed up so she ended being in the cast after all. We got to sit at a table really close to the stage and jerry videotaped the whole show. Cassie was the host for the first show and she was hilarious. She was throwing out her pantie hose tities (just like mine lol) and telling the lesbian to play hackie sack with it. Next came whitney who didnt want jerry to video tape her so we didnt get her on tape. Everyone was else wasnt bothered by the camera at all. in fact, they performed to it. Kelexis was like "oh you filming, ok." and she stuck her titie in the camera. lol. She is a trip. Maya did "Frozen" by madonna for me, which I had requested her to do earlier on in the week through email. It was flawless as always. Kelexis did Destiny Child's loose my breath for me. Layla did this one really high energy dance song and then an elegant song later on. Kelexis brought me up on stage, announced to everyone it was my birthday. She said talked to about me and explained to the audience how I am one of the rose room cast biggest supporters and introduced me as kimberly lancaster too. She said I am one of the sweetest boys she knows and how sometimes I am so sweet she just wants to lick me like candy. lol. She had the audience say happy birthday to me. The first time they didnt do it very loud and she was like come on I know there are more than 4 people here and they did it much louder the second time. Maya performed two more songs and the last one made jerry cry. It made me very emotional. The drag show was very special to me because I was able to share with jerry something that is very important to me and that I love so much. I think he gained a new appreciation for drag that night.We danced alittle after the drag show and then went home. I went to bed the happiest boy in the world. It was truly a wonderful night and one I surely will remember for long time to come. Surrounded by the man I love (and who deeply loves me) and friends who love me, being able to do the things that i love so much. Wow! I got the pictures developed today. They came out soooo nice! I will post them soon.

whosecoming updated

1. dave
2. jerry
3. diana
4. krytal
5. claudia
6. ashley
7. nesha
8. mark
9. jeremy
10. nancy
11. john
12. chase
13. Dametria
14. Steven
15. Rhonda
16. Ashley B

I really wanted to be able to spend the night tonight with Jerry. I had this dream fantasy of waking up next to my beautiful man, watch him sleeping if hes still sleeping, cuddle, look into his eyes when he wakes up, having breakfast with him and just spending a leisurely day together before we got ready to go dinner. He's too tired to come get me though. Its ok. im just alittle disappointed is all. I hope he is able to come get me early tommorow tho. earlier than two I hope. I guess two would be ok. I dont want to spend hours of the day by myself tommorow. I dont know how long I will sleep tommorow. I mean I may sleep in late. Altho I really dont want to. I mean I dont want to get up at no 8am in the morning. hell no! but i dont want to sleep in real late and waste the day. I want to cherish every moment. Hopefully we will get to have a late breakfast together. I want jerry to make me pancakes. his are wonderful. I hope I'll get to spend the night tommorow night. Im very excited about tommorow. I cant wait for the dinner with all my friends, surrounded by those who love me, different friends ive met in different parts of my life all brought together by me, going to the rose room cast show, one of my favorite things in the world which ive so been missing, dancing the night away. before the dinner and the night life, enjoying the simple pleasures of life like watching tv cuddled next to your boyfriend, sitting at the dining table eating with your boyfriend. He brings me much joy, I love him so much. its been awhile since ive got to spend the night with him, spend awhole day with him.

Really Happy!

Ok so I just read an amazing play called "BENT". I will write more about it later but yea wow! I am about to go do an analysis of it. Now that I have read the play, I so want to see the movie.

I got an email from Chris who works at Caven and is the on site events manager. She told me that Cassie, Whitney, Maya, Layla and Kelexis are going to be performing Sunday which is an ideal cast except for its missing Krystal. Kelexis told me she wasnt going to be in town that night so I dont know what is up with that. Maybe Krystal will have to take her place. Possibly Krystal will be able to come to dinner and just watch the show with us. She is normally pretty busy but well see. I called her today but my phone died so I dont know whether or not she returned my call. I just got an email from Maya, who I emailed earlier today about requesting her to perform a song for me and she said she would be more than happy to and just to send her an email reminder before sunday. :)! At Sue Ellens, they are going to have a table reserved for me and the way I will know which table is mine is they are going to have balloons at my table which I think is kinda neat. Tommorow I get to see Jerry and Nancy which is always a good thing. Tommorow I need to call and make reservations for PF Changs. Ok I am off to write my paper while my energy and enthusiasm is still high.

Stressed

Just alittle stressed yea. So with my makeup class, I still have to execute two youthfuls, a middle age, two old age and a final. I tried to do one of my youthfuls today but I ran out of time and wasnt satisfied with what i had. I am going to redo it tuesday. We have four more class periods. I still have to do my middle age, two old age, and final makeup analysis and design. so yea im alittle stressed. I think I can do it but I have to really push myself. What really sucks too is that like earlier in the semester she was allowing people to stay after class to finish makeups but now that some asshole who i want to hunt down and kill stole the makeup departments $600 camera, she wont let people stay in their unsupervised. Oh so Im going to try to do both youthfuls on tuesday. If I am able to do one middle age and one old age thursday then one old age next tuesday and then my final on the final thursday, ill be in good shape but thats if she returns things in a timely manner, which she doesnt always do. Im off to the library to turn in some books, get new ones, read, and type. I want to turn some analysis in tommorow. I need to so she can grade it over the weekend.

Decisions

I got an email from Kelexis today and she told me that unfortunately she wont be able to perform at Sue Ellen's on my birthday. I sure hope Maya and Krystal are part of the cast that night. At least one but both would be ideal. My ideal cast would be Maya, Krystal, Whitney, Cassie, and Layla now but I really dont care who else is in the cast as long as Maya and Krystal are part of it. I emailed Richard to find out who is in the cast that night but have yet to get a response back from him. I keep checking my email hoping to hear back from him. I need to call Krystal and ask her if she knows the schedule.

I decided on going to PF Chang's for my birthday. I think its a good choice and nice since it is family style. I wonder if Nancy will do a reading on me at the restaraunt about what the next year holds for me. I would like that alot. I want to make reservations for my birthday but alot of people have viewed my evite but have no rsvped on whether yes, no, maybe. I guess i need to call and check with people. Jerry may make me a cheesecake for my birthday! :) We can take it with us to Sue Ellen's. I am going to have a table reserved for me and my friends at Sue Ellen's. I would like to possibly rent the first season of "Popular" and have alittle popular marathon during the day before my dinner. we'll see. I am very excited about my birthday!

i thought i would post another poem i wrote not too long ago after my breakup with my ex

Untainted

Hurt, bitterness I am free of you now
Sit down listen I will tell you how
At one point you tried to reign
Flow through me like the blood in my vein
Bitterness did not corrupt my heart
Domination was not able to tear me apart
Dictatorship could no longer be
I saw through it and now am free
If I had not dethroned your power of me
You would have destroyed me
I saw through it and now am free
I am leaving now and taking nothing
No tattoo, mark of resentment, distrust or anything
I have had a blood transfusion of pureness
Characterized by openness to love and wholeness
Ready to love and to share beauty
Untainted free that is me
Excited knowing what will be
Through all my experiences of life I am not jaded
My passion for life has not faded
Untainted free that is me
Life, I am ready surprise me


so lets see who's coming to dinner so far
1. me
2. jerry
3. nancy
4. john
5. chase
6.claudia(just confirmed tonight)
7. krystal c
8. diana
9. Rhonda (she said maybe)
10. mark (just confirmed tonight)
11. jeremy (just confirmed tonight)